Everything Has Changed (?)

You know those times in life where you can feel everything in your world is about to change? You know the why and can see it coming—even can put a date on it at times—but you can in know way predict the extent of the change, speed it up, or slow it down. Instead, you feel you are resigned to sit back and wait for the avalanche to hit.

Or is that only me?

There have been numerous times where I can feel this of  type change approaching—almost as if it is in the very air I breathe, demanding my attention.

Three years ago last week I graduated from High School! (woot woot) I remember leaving the school for the last time with all of my friends, knowing the hours and hours over the years I had spent there were at their close. The nights of fall football games that brought the school together (even if we were never very good…), the classic dance planning and dress searching, the lunch hour after lunch hour spent working on ceramic sculptures, the times between class and after school on the “senior bench” with friends just hoping you get to talk to a certain special someone, the seemingly constant preparing for AP tests (“now THIS is a great AP question!”), joining club after club to look good on college resumes (now I KNOW I am not the only one who did that), Monday lunchtime seminary council meetings, and of course the never ending project of creating the greatest yearbook Viewmont has ever seen (shout-out to myself for designing the cover); my time in High School was well spent and well loved. Not to mention the time I spent outside of school with “the gang” aka the greatest group of friends I could have asked for. But even with all those memories and special moments, I could sense it ending. I could feel it was over--now only be revisited in my mind or in pictures. I just could not foresee what exactly would replace it.

“College” was just a word to me. It meant more school and living away from home and trying to be an adult. But even all of that was hard to fully grasp. It is only now that I have spent as much time in University as I did in High School that I can see the changes college made in me and my life.

Almost two years ago I packed up my life and moved across the pond to England. I remember sitting on the plane after saying goodbye to my parents early in the morning and just thinking “WAIT. What am I doing???” I knew that studying abroad would change me. It would change my life and how I saw the world and who I was in it. I just could not see how it would and what experiences would lead me through that change.

Here I am, five days away from arguably the biggest change of my life.

I am marrying my best friend for time and all eternity in the Salt Lake Temple. I know this event is going to change everything in my life—including myself—but I cannot know how. I can put a date and even a time on it, but the how.. The how evades me once again. These moments of approaching change are always special to me. It gives me time to self-reflect and evaluate where I am and who I am in that moment, so as to better compare & contrast in the changes to come. 

So let me tell you who I am right now, because in five days I will be a different person with a different name living a very different life, never to return to this one. 

My name is Aimee. 

I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and I love my Savior very much.

I am a nursing student with a passion for people and creativity. 

I love watercolors, florals, and anything gold. 

I think Anthropologie's dishes are perfect. 

I always wish I was swimming. 

If possible, I would probably choose to live off of salads, fresh peaches, gyros, and indian food. Oh, and smoothies. 

My favorite snack is an apple with peanut butter and graham crackers. 

I like to run; bake cinnamon rolls and applesauce cookies; and visit street markets, arts museums, ancient ruins, libraries, and parks.

My family is my best friends. 

My idea of a perfect afternoon is a bike ride and picnic in the park. 

England holds a part of my heart and is one of my homes. 

My grandparents are my heroes, and when I grow up I hope to be just like my mom.
I will love you forever if you scratch my back. 

I have had 27 roommates, and I am pretty sure they have all been better than yours. 

I would cut off both my pinky toes to see Adele in concert. 

I enjoy school, and if I have free time you will find me reading (probably Harry Potter). 

I love a boy named Austin.   

There you go! That's who I am right now. I will write again in a month and tell you who I am then. I hope to find myself with a greater understanding of my role in God's plan, more patience with myself and those around me--especially those closest to me, and even more love for my boy named Austin. 

Love Always, Aimee 

 

then & now. 

Expect the Unexpected

I like to plan.

Anyone who knows me well is well aware that I like be in charge of myself and in charge of my schedule. I have had my life mapped out to this point since... well, since I could read a calendar, I suppose. I always knew I would graduate high school in 2013 and begin my university studies at BYU. I would then spend Fall of 2014 on the study abroad program in London. When I came home I would then allow myself to start dating people, be an efy counselor summer of 2015, and get married summer of 2016 right after I turned 21--just as my mother and sister had done. When you are young it does not seem so silly to plan things such as when you are getting married, or the exact time and place you will do a study abroad. I did not consider factors such as "What if I don't get into BYU?" or "What if I can't actually go on study abroad? It's competitive and expensive" or, the real shocker, "What if I have not yet found a person I want to marry/a person who wants to marry me by the incredibly young age of 21??" No. Haha, those thoughts did not come to me until applying to colleges, interviewing for study abroad, or getting to school and realizing how many relationships fail. Call me naive, but I prefer to call myself a dreamer. Even more and a dreamer, a doer.

You see, all my life my parents have taught me that if I want something bad enough, plan for it, and work hard, I can have it. Here I am, days from turning 21, in complete awe of the path my life has taken.

Yes, I have been at BYU these last few years and am whole-heartedly in love with my university and the unique opportunities it provides. There is no where else I would rather spend my days studying and growing.

Yes, I did spend four months living in London last fall, but I have dedicated enough posts to that incredible experience.

Yes, I was an efy counselor for the summer. It was awesome. And hard. But mostly awesome.

Yes, I am getting married in two months. June of 2016, just as I always planned. What?!

And what have I learned through it all??

Expect the unexpected.

While these major events in my life have (miraculously) all gone according to plan, I have found that it is the minor details that have made all the difference. For instance, what am I actually going to study at school and do for the rest of my life? Or why spend copious amounts of money for four short months abroad? What's the point? Oh. Also, turns out it is really competitive to be an efy counselor and they prefer RM's.. Which I am not. What if I don't get the job? Or the real big one: who am I going to marry and spend the rest of my life with?!

I have found over and over again that Heavenly Father is willing to work with me. A few weeks ago at General Conference, something was shared that has stuck with me since.

"You can have what you want, or you can have something better"

That has been my overwhelming experience these last three years in college. I NEVER planned on being a nurse. Not in a thousand years. Never planned on the lessons I learned in England or the ways I changed. Never expected the heartbreaks and miracles of efy. Above all, I definitely never planned on marrying Austin. Those things were not part of my plan. Lucky for me, Heavenly Father is patient. He loves me, stubbornness and all. He has lead me by the hand and said, "Look Aimee. You can have what you want, or if you will just trust me and let go of some of your need for control, you have have something infinitely better."

Gaye Ray fan club

Love me my Ellen

Santa Barbara for life

(I said yes)

Today as I sat with friends from elementary, jr. high, and high school and listened to my closest childhood friend speak of her experiences these last 18 months in Africa as a missionary, I could not help but marvel at how much we had all grown up and changed. From returning from missions, studying in college, marriages, and even babies, big things have happened for each of us. Heavenly Father has a perfect plan for each of us. Now, that does not mean we have to give up all our dreams and goals. Not even a little bit. I have done everything I hoped to in my life! But Heavenly Father knows I am capable of so much more than I think. He has stretched me and pushed me farther than I could go alone. He has led me down paths I was much too terrified to follow. He has strengthened my faith and enlarged my mind and world. Everything He does, He does to benefit me. Simply because I am His daughter and He loves me with a perfect love. It is not because  I am somehow earned it; I am far from deserving the beautiful life I live. It is there purely because He loves me.

Nursing cohort - love these fools.

Looking for Mr. Darcy...

Oh wait. Austin is better than Mr. Darcy.

I know God lives. I have seen his hand in the small details of my life, day after day. All He asks is that I have the faith to follow Him. That I will allow Him to bless me, to lead me, to guide me to the wonderful life He so desperately wants me to have--and above all, the life that will bring me home to Him. I am so grateful. Grateful that He trusts me enough to become a nurse and care for His children in need of healing on this earth. Grateful He let me go to my family's 'homeland' and meet some of the most influential and lifelong friends there. Grateful He allowed me to spend my summer learning from the incredible youth and working with amazing people. Grateful He led me to my best friend; someone who loves me even knowing I am imperfect. More than anything, I am grateful that I can be with my best friend and family quite literally forever. 

God is real. God is good. It is a beautiful life, and I am so lucky to live it--even (and perhaps especially) when it does not go according to my plan. 

Love Always, Aimee 

I am in love with life.

so you're going on a study abroad..

So you’re going on a study abroad..

(I know a million things have happened in my life over the last four months. I fully intend to document them here, but all in good time. Here is a ridiculously long post that has been long promised to some cute friends who might just find it useful..)

MARKETS

Markets were definitely one of my favorite scenes to frequent in the UK. There are several right inside London itself and almost every town you stop in will have one as well. I love the food offered, cultures presented, and ambiance provided. You can get killer deals on unique souvenirs, incredible food, and some of the best people watching opportunities all in one spot. I call that winning at life, my friends.

(Harry Potter Puppet Pals?) 

Camden Market

This one was my favorite so we’ll start there. When you get off the stop, I believe you turn right and walk up the street. At first you will be disappointed and think, “Aimee. Why did you recommend this place? It’s just another tourist trap.” FALSE. Walk past all the touristy crap that you find everywhere and you will reach mecca. You’ll find food from all over the world and the cutest handmade goods on both sides of the street. If you’re like me and suffer in making small decisions, I suggest going in a group so you can get a bunch of food items to share; it’s impossible to pick one.

Portobello Road

The classic. Yes, it gets crowded Saturday mornings by about 10:00, but honestly I suggest not using Saturday to sleep in. If you get going by 8:00 or even 9:00 you can beat crowds and it makes such a difference. You have the rest of your life to sleep in. Take advantage of everything for these four months! Sleep can always wait (that seems to be a theme in my life no matter where I am..). Anyways. Back to Portobello Road. It is a way fun place to window shop, especially if you like vintage things. It can go on forever though; don’t feel like you need to walk the whole thing. The shops start repeating themselves.  A lot of the girls I roomed with were obsessed with their crepes..  I had better? But they did discover if you bring your own raspberries they will put them on the Nutella crepe for you haha.

Bourough Market

 BEST. FOOD.

 It is kind of far out there, but definitely definitely worth the trip AT LEAST once. Go when you are on your London Walks or after you visit Tower Bridge. Amazing grilled cheese (Grill My Cheese) and ah-maze-ing pastries/treats. Really just so many wonderful food options.. They also happen to have cookies bigger than you face for 2 pounds. Obviously that is a big yes. It’s open every day and is bigger than you think! It took me two trips to realize there was a whole other half I never knew existed at first. Walk in all directions my friends.

Covent Garden

Such a fun environment to go and just hang out. There are always events happening here or street performers. It’s a solid place to people watch and shop. And eat! There is a really good crepe restaurant in the basement. It’s usually easier to get off the Leischter Square tube stop and walk five minutes; Covent Garden’s stop is usually crowded and it’s like 20 flights of stairs underground so….

Spitalfields Market

Way fun market you will stumble across on your London walks. Adorable clothes, but a little pricier place. I never went, but I heard from another girl (whose opinion I completely trust) that just around the corner is what they call “Brick Lane” where Jack the Ripper killed most of his victims; if you want the best Thai food of your life, go to Rosas nearby and get the Chicken Pad Thai .

You will stop in so many random towns as you travel throughout the UK on coach. Don’t fall into temptation and just try things you know or go into chain fast food places. Find the markets when possible and eat there! It’s usually cheaper/healthier/better tasting and where you will find the locals.

STORES

I know what you’re thinking; “Aimee, I spent so much money to just go on study abroad I can’t afford to shop.”

Yes. Yes, you can. At least a little bit. It’s so fun to observe their styles and learn to dress like a true Londoner. There is just something about their clothes that is superior than ours..  If you’re really on a budget or really want to get a lot for your money, Primark is the place for you! Let’s be honest. Primark is actually the place for everyone. I got my favorite pair of black pants ever there for seven pounds. SEVEN. Say what. Everything there is super cheap and okay quality. It is pretty crowded there.. just be warned. Don’t go when you have a headache.

Harrods

Obviously. It is so much fun to walk through! Ha just don’t check the price tag on anything or you will come to find you probably cannot afford to even breathe in there.. Princess Diana’s ring is in the basement! Make sure to see it. And they do have good food. It’s home to the Cronut. As in a croissant donut. Yes. Those exist. Yes, you need to try one (though tbh the best one I had was at this incredible donut and cronut stand in Camden; FIND IT).

Hamley’s

It’s a five story toy store on Regent/Oxford street. What’s not to love? Speaking of Oxford and Regent Street, that is really where your central shopping will be. They have everything. ALSO. There is nothing more magical than walking all the way down Oxford street (starting at Marble Arch) at night once Halloween has past and the Christmas lights come out.. <3

Liberty House

Just off Regent street. It’s another one you probably can’t afford anything in, but worth taking a trip to and enjoying looking around. It’s not like anthropologie, but it reminded me of it just because of how it’s set up. If that makes sense haha. Go check it out!

Topshop

Go get clothes. kthanksbye.

FOOD

Nando’s: You didn’t go to London if you didn’t eat at Nando’s.

Gourmet Burger Kitchen: Need I say more? (they have an app that will give you discounts and I think they offer student discounts as well. Really just ask EVERYWHERE if they give student discounts; a lot of places do but don’t advertise it).

Café Nero: You can get hot soup and bread for like three pounds or something. Which is a miracle when you are in some tiny town in the pouring rain and feel poor.

Ben’s Cookies. Ben’s Cookies Ben’s Cookie’s Ben’s Cookies. Just go. All the time. Try them all. Love them all. And then please bring one home to me. (I am 100% serious).

Khan’s: WAY good Indian restaurant close to the Bayswater station. They also deliever if you aren’t feeling like going out! Once upon a time Ellen and I thought we could handle the hottest chicken they had…. Good times.

Zizi’s.:There is one right out of Nottinghill Gate! Super good Italian pizza if you are up for a night out.

Pizza Express: Good pizza at decent prices and can be found anywhere.

Taza’s: HOW could you ever forget about Taza’s? It is this whole in the wall place right off Queensway. We are talking less than five-minute walk from the Centre. It has way good shwarma (spelling??) for really cheap served to you by men who only call you love/dear/darling (in a totally non-creepy way). Man. Now I really want to go here.

Hummingbird Bakery: Right off Portobello Road! But don’t try and go on a Saturday. They have way good cupcakes AND sell pumpkin bread in the fall. Pricier but delicious.

Paul’s Bakery: Yes.

Crush: Good healthy wraps and such.

Hampton Court feat. the Volturi

Whole Foods: This was my comfort place when I needed some American groceries. Mostly you can get just a bag of popcorn kernels and brown paper sacks, go back to the center and pop it, melt a little butter, sprinkle some salt or cinnamon, and BOOM. Late night snack.

Dishoom : This was for sure my favorite meal I had in London. It’s a Michelin Guide restaurant and incredible Indian food. Oh my heck. We went our very last night and it was just the perfect ending to the perfect semester. It’s very close to Leicester Square. Honestly I thought the prices were very fair considering how amazing it is. Definitely more a posh place, and although we lucked out and got in without a reservation, I recommend getting one.

SNOWFLAKE: Go at least once a week. Have family night or something. It’s a gelato place, and having been to Italy and eaten my fair share of gelato I will vouch for its authenticity. My favorite was actually the pear? But I am a vanilla and fruit person. It is just down the street from Palace Court on Pembridge Road. I would tell you to bring me some of this back too, but the whole melting thing is an issue..

MUSEUMS.

The National Gallery is my personal favorite, but I love art. One of my favorite views in all of London is standing at the top of the steps and looking out over Trafalgar Square to Big Ben.

Honestly you will probably go to most museums for class assignments, but enjoy them. It’s incredible that they are all free to the public! The British Museum, Tate,  Victoria and Albert (way cool but prepare to get lost), are all so good. One that you do have to pay for is the Imperial War Museum/Churchill War Rooms, but I thought it was worth it. If you’re interested in WWII or Churchill, do it. Try not to get worn out of museums and just rush through them for class. It’s what you came to do: study abroad. You can learn so much in them! Seriously. On the flip side, don’t spend all day in one either.. Haha there is lots to do in very little time.

PARKS

Do yourself a favor and get up early a few times a week to go run in Kensington. It was one of my favorite things.. Say hello to William, Kate, George, now baby Charlotte for me! </3  OH! And rent bikes at least once! It is so fun to bike around for a little before dinner and just enjoy the fall air. St. James’s Park and going up to Little Venice are totally worth your time as well (London Walks class FTW ladies and gents).

Where has your backpack?

SHOWS

You are surrounded by the best theatre in the world. TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE WEST END. Go to the Globe more than once. Buy day-of/student tickets. See a show you’ve never heard of but has great reviews. Invest in the classics. Just live it up!

Some favorites included:

Les Mis: this is the show I really advise just biting the bullet and if you are going to see it, get an at least semi-decent seat. Because when they say restricted view, it turns out they mean restricted view. Go figure.

Matilda: dare I say this was my favorite one? At least top 5. AND IT ONLY COST 5 POUNDS. I was blown away by the kids’ talent. The music, the choreography, and the set were all brilliant. Get up early one day when you don’t have class and wait in line for the day-of tickets. I think we left about 7:30 or 8? And they give them to the first 15 people in line at 10:00. So so so so worth it. Bring a book and read in line. But you have to see this show.

Wicked: They give student tickets on the FRONT ROW day of for 25 pounds. Never have I been so blown away. I had seen Wicked when it came to Salt Lake, and obviously loved it, but HOLY COW. When you are five feet from the action and can see their expressions the emotional roller coaster you ride is unreal. Plus the Glinda is LDS, so that’s cool.

Other good ones included Phantom, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, White Christmas, and anything Shakespeare.

OH. Also. A few years ago, Benedict Cumberbatch ( <3 <3 <3 ) played the role of both Frankenstein and the monster at the National Theatre (epic, right?). Last year for Halloween they did a rescreening of the show at the movie theatre for like 10 pounds? It was INCREDIBLE. Frankenstein is one of my favorite books, and who better to be the complex characters than Benedict? If you have the chance, see it. But I will just warn you: it is a little graphic.

Speaking of shows and Benedict, keep your eye on movie premieres. Mockingjay and The Hobbit both had their red carpet premieres in Leicester Square in London. WHAT IS LIFE, right? If you plan ahead you can spot some celebrities and have your live changed by standing five feet from your love--Josh Hutcherson--and bff--Jennifer Lawrence. Living in London has so many perks it is insane guys. Just keep your eyes and ears out at all times and really take advantage of everything London has to offer! You will never get to call such a unique and cultural place home again.

TRAVEL.

I am just going to refer you back to my Paris and Germany and Scotland posts.. But PLAN AHEAD. Know things you want to see and do before hand. Then be flexible! Things don’t usually go as planned, so have back-ups and don’t stress. Just enjoy it all. Definitely take advantage of the fact you can visit another country for Thanksgiving break for only a couple hundred dollars. GO. Germany. Austria. Switzerland. Italy. Spain. Pick one and go. Small groups of even numbers are best, and you can find cheap but good housing on airbnb.

Thanks JK. Rowling. Always.

OTHER

Yes, you have to do the Harry Potter Studio Tour. And GET THE AUDIO GUIDE! So worth it to hear Tom Felton narrate everything you could have ever wanted to know about the world of Harry. Honestly, worth every pound seven times over. Even if you don't love Harry Potter, it is incredibly fascinating to see how the movies and magic was created.

 

HIGH TEA

Yes. It is pricey. But it is just part of the experience of London and something that needs to be done! Make some reservations, get all dressed up, and enjoy your afternoon of drinking some nice (herbal) tea with your lovely ladies being waited on hand and food (and eating so many delicious treats and finger sandwiches).

Just be prepared to make some of the best friends of your life these next few months. The London Ladies of Room 2 will always hold a very special place in my heart...

I could honestly talk for a week straight about London and the love I have for it, but no one would listen so I will be done now. But if you are going on a study abroad, count yourself among the luckiest people on the planet. If you are going on a study abroad to London, consider you and your life forever changed by the magic and energy of that city. Open your heart and mind to the people, cultures, and history presented there. Do not waste a single day. And remember, a man who is tired of London is tired of life; because quite frankly, London is life. Cheers!

Love Always, Aimee

(I realize half these pictures correlated with what I was talking about, and half didn't.. Just go with it.)